Thursday, June 29, 2006

Johnny Rumble:
Strife and War on the Horizon...

Well...hmm...My Ex-girlfriend is here for a month, and has been here for the past 4 days or so. In these past four days my moods have been shifting rather rapidly and quite frequently. Since we had broken-up, i have been able to direct pretty much most of my hatred and anger at her memory. But since she has shown up, I have been feeling both pissed off and yet very friendly toward her.

Keeping our history (very clingy, i got nearly zero alone time) in mind, I feel that i have betrayed my self and yet i feel better for being friendly and nice. Don't get me wrong, she still irritates the fuck outta my most of the time. And yet i still find her attractive and very desirable. This whole situation is driving me up the wall, but I can't stop it.

I think the reason I threw up the wall of hatred toward her direction is to help prevent a situation like this. I fought my mother about her coming her, and gave her plently of (weak) reasons why she shouldn't come, but I didn't have the gonads to tell her the real reason, even though I think that both of them know it.

Fortunatly I'm going to be out of the house all day tomorrow, so I'll have plenty of alone time to contemplate this issue and hopefully make the right move to set things straight again.

And i'm out.


Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Johnny Rumble:
Escape Is Imminent

Sitting in my padded cell
Padded walls
Deadbolt door
Strapped together,
Mental and sane
Mixed up emotions,
Tearing up my mind
Pain of the drugs,
Stings of the needles
Protect my self,
Injury could happen
Never alone,
Haunted by demons
Sitting alone,
Wallowing in pity
Drowning in self depression

Comes a time when escape is imminent
With draw once again
Into my cocoon of pain
Safe haven every things the same
White padded walls
Bouncing around
Trying to escape
Escape is imminent

Break through pills
Rebounding issues
Death never comes quickly
Stars live and die
Faster than I gain and lose
My minds in overdrive
Overcome the problems
Tunnels and lights at the end
Creep my mind
Freaking out
Losing my mind


Endless dispositions
Lost friends
Gained skeletons
Closets getting too full
I gotta break out
Spread the message
Bring about the change
No more pills
No more drugs
No more walls
My escape too near
Not backing into the hole


Wednesday, June 07, 2006

another song, untitled at the moment

Here is another song...probably a fair bit of Rancid or Time Again flavor(maybe I don't know what it reads like) since that's been in my playlist lately. Hope you like it...

Intro and outro

You’re beaten’ running scared

Many a night you’ve spent…

Breaking bottles

Over smashed knuckles.


Can’t find the strength with in.

And all those good intentions you’ve watched grow

Now slip out your backdoor

While the rage busts in the front


Down! Down! Down & out.

Down! Down! Down & out.


All you’re life you’ve struggled facing demons

First in school getting pushed around

Now you’re punching a clock seems like no one cares.


Down! Down! Down & out.

Down! Down! Down & out.


And all you got is another role

Unloading your problems to another soul

Yet the tension coils like a spring

Fed up with this lie, you scream thinking

What can you do, but keep on running!


Trav the Spazz